Thanks, I think I get what you guys are saying, it is hard to not take the blame in this last session. I just felt like he was firing all these questions at me, and he was doubting me. He said in the email, he is trying to understand how I feel. I know this is not his area, I feel almost like he doesn't know what to do with me, he doesn't work with sexual abuse survivors. He is learning as we go, but he told me months ago, before I disclosed, because he was urging me to disclose that he was with me until the end!! I don't feel like that is what he wants anymore, part of me wants to just say,FINE.......I will find someone else, but I don't want to lose him. I trust him! I know he can help me, but I am a difficult patient............I know that.........so all night I tried to think of how I can overcome this barrier of not showing my emotions to him, not talking to him at times, and not beating on myself anymore........I just cannot think of anything!!!!!!!!!!!! All this is just added stress right now!! I will think about keeping my appt and talking to him about what happened and what I felt...........and why he acted like he did with the million questions, and when I couldn't find the words he was short with me!!