He will be back. Available. Accessible.

Right?

I think.

I am going to try not to call him on Tuesday. What's one more day? Ha. Tuesday is my busiest day of the week. I leave the house at 7:30 AM and don't get home until 10 PM. So if there is any day in which I could actually not think about him (Ok. That is not possible. I will rephrase)... If there is any day in which I could think about him considerably less than I normally do, it would be a Tuesday.

I am just hoping that he will change his voicemail back from his vacation message so at least I will know he returned.

I feel like he's not my therapist anymore. I have gone through so many different stages of dealing with this. I think I am up to the "out of sight, out of mind" one. Well, I mean obviously he's not out of mind just for the sheer fact that I'm typing this right now... but it that's object constancy thing in a different way... like I don't even feel hurt right now. I just sort of feel like........ therapist? What therapist?