I will finally see T on Tuesday. I wish it were a 3 hour session, LOL. I am depressed and it is because and not because of the break of the past 3 weeks. The reunion (via the telephone yesterday) has been as difficult as the separation. I'm sure the reunion in person will be extremely emotional and charged.

I now see the benefit of the vacation break. The separation has allowed me to experience something from my childhood that I would not have been able to get in touch with if T had not gone on vacation. I was extremely neglected as a little girl and I used to lay in bed night after night anxious with no comfort, often wetting the bed. Not only was I not encouraged to express my needs, I never even knew what that means. No context, no concept of what being needy means or being worthy of consideration.

Like I said before, therapy is so hard.