So, it's been about a week since I've had any contact with him, or even logged into chat, checked his social media, etc. I had a dream last night where he told me never to talk to him again, and woke up feeling very weird.

Besides that, there obviously aren't any updates to do with him, so I'll just talk about how I've been.

I'm waiting for a doc's confirmation on this, but my moods seem to be shift very rapidly. I was manic - or hypomanic, not quite sure - for a few days last week - sh-tload of energy, getting a ton of stuff done, feeling on top of the world - now, I'm back down to just... Feeling nothing.

I've started taking 200mg Kava every day - which, ironically, was my ex-friend's suggestion, a few months ago - to see if it works better at controlling the shifts than Theanine did. It seems to, but I really have no idea yet.

Still no pdoc appointment for a month, but the therapist (the same one I saw last time) had an appointment open up for next Friday.

I'm not sure what I'm going to tell him. He's not convinced I have BD, and - I'm not 100% on this, just a hunch - seems to think a lot of this is just me creating drama for attention.