Interesting that when there is the idea of not seeing them again that the attachment gets stronger. I don't feel love towards my T and we're starting to work on the feelings in our relationship instead of outside stuff which she hasn't done before so maybe it will come up. I think if I did, she'd accept it and we'd probably work through it - not that it is something that needs to be gotten rid of. Now the pdoc, who is not a therapist and not trained in these things, would freak out and I do love him. I'm afraid to even say so casually. I risked and told my T in an email that I loved him in a grateful kind of way and I'm wondering if it will come up this week in therapy. It should - I really need to work it out, but I'm too chicken to bring it up in session. I know pdoc would worry because he worries any time something seems to get personal in an obvious way. Interesting that he only keys in when it's more overt. I'll never figure it out. (rolls eyes)