I am sorry about the side effects. I had them too but I had my husband keep my eye on me in case things declined rather than improved (which they did). I think it's important that someone monitor you, too. You can't always tell people how you are feeling.

Depression, for me at least, is ups and downs too. It sucks, frankly as time seems to crawl along when you are in any kind of pain, plus we lose sight of how bad we are...we lose objectivity when it comes to ourselves.

It sounds trivial to suggest that you indulge yourself in whatever way you can, in the mean time. Be online, have funny movies on (even if you don't actively watch, the noise is a distraction), avoid the news, get some lavender (I made linen spray with it), sleep, read, anything it takes to make the time move a little faster, Maybe research drugs? Try St Johns Wort? Sam-e?
Keep posting, please.