I guess, I've always been affected, just didn't have the label. Since childhood, I somehow got the idea that my life was a meaningful quest. (My all time favorite novel is Don Quixote.) Delusions may have been a buffer for some challenges. Today, I can look at past episodes and paint them happy or miserable, so I don't always trust my memory. I am "chatty" tonight, husband noted that, I feel happy, maybe veering towards brief hypomania. What does active and productive look like for you? I hope you get it pronto!