I completely understand where you're at. As far as the girls go, sorry to anyone who is in high school as I am aware this is a generalization, but people are dumb about relationships when they are young. I definitely was. And what I mean to say is that we were all just trying to navigate our crazy hormones without getting hurt. I don't think, in our teens, we are emotionally evolved enough to fully understand how to navigate the dating realm. I'm sorry those girls hurt you, but don't let that be an indicator of how it will always be.

When I say I understand how you feel, it is because I'm feeling very similar. But I am about 15 years older, and have had a lot longer to become jaded, haha. I've had some pretty devastating experiences which have caused me to close myself off a bit, and I chose for a very long time not to pursue relationships. Also, I was a virgin until I was 26. A bit of it was because I was very religious in my early 20s (I finally slept with the guy I thought I was going to marry). I guess my point is...try not to allow yourself to let the past define your future. I'm on here tonight because I'm in a negative spiral after a rather painful dating rejection (yet again), and I'm just trying desperately to stop spiraling. I feel unwanted and unnoticed at times even though I know that I'm freaking awesome and worthy of a relationship. I know that some of my hangups make dating hard for me though. The most important thing I think I learned from my 20's til now is that it's important to learn to be content with your own company. People told me that all the time and I was like, "Psssh whatever," but it's true. I was sad, lonely, empty, etc and totally hated being alone. I've learned to be very happy on my own. Do I want to be with someone? Absolutely. But do I have to be with someone to feel content? No. It took me a REALLY long time to get to this point but it's so much better than feeling bound by sadness.

(Also porn and women in the real world are nothing alike. Definitely get that solidified or you might be very disappointed once you do have sex.)