@Nickname As I've stated, I've never been in an actual relationship. I've merely experienced failed attempts at starting one. Mostly turned down, but also a friend choosing some one else over me.

@RXQueen I've been on medication for years. I've been on meds since I was about 12. For ADD and later Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression. I've been to psychologists before... Didn't really help all that much. And believe me... I've tried to love myself. I've tried to carry myself... But the most I've ever felt is just being content. Not happiness.

@Ruari I appreciate your words. I have considered the fact the line of thinking of girls still maturing.. To a point. I've seen both friends and family have successful relationships at a young age. Hence the feelings I've developed. ...I'm trying the best I can to believe that I'm not fated to be alone. Still.. It doesn't change the fact of how much I've endured. It's hard to keep going..