Hi there! I read your book lol. I'm curious as to where your trust issues stem from? If you don't want to share that it's okay. Do you by any slim chance have BPD? I ask because of the fear of abandonment. I myself have BPD so I get that much. And I admit I also am guilty of bombarding my crush, bf ect with a assload of texts. Especially when I'm hypomanic (I'm also BP). I even do this to my bf when I KNOW he's working and can't text back. And I don't think we're the only women that do this. For me it's about the feeling of the attention and the fact that my attention is wanted as well. A feeling that I'm something to be chased after. That being said, you may have pushed him away or even intimidated him with what you may have said. Maybe he doesn't know how to respond or is used to being the one doing the chasing. Besides there are the red flags. Don't ignore those! Listen to your gut. Chances are it's right.

Don't give up on searching for "the one". We all deserve love and care at any age. Maybe try sticking to looking locally so the person can give you the attention and time you want/need. There's nothing wrong with that. You did say you are awesome, you have a great job ect. That's the kind of thinking you need! Don't give up on love and don't be so hard on yourself.

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