Wow. You make an attempt on your own life, get only basic care and 17 hours of sleep, and then immediately launch off into seven straight days off work at a job where your personal time isn't out of bounds...

Add in all the other horrors you mention and "not doing well lately" sounds like super-understatement.
Immediately, is there any way to improve or guard your sleep?
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.