As I've stated before, Wants, I am here because I really have no choice. My OCD is so bad, I can't live just anywhere, so I can't accept most housing offered by services like HUD and mental health housing. Additionally, have you ever called these people for help? I couldn't remember the number for a mental housing place here, so I called my shrink office, and they had no idea what I was talking about. (Since we moved back into the county in which this housing organization is located, I figured I'd call them again, even though they were no help before. They said I couldn't see the place before moving in, which is a necessity for my OCD, and I can't live with anyone else, which they said I might have to.) These psychiatrists and organizations don't know about each other, so it makes it difficult to find help. But I need a place that is very clean and has lots of new stuff. Who's going to help me get that?

And no, I have no one to live with, which would only put me in the same situation I'm in now, anyway.

And I have no money to move. I have to give most of my money to my bf, but even so, my OCD costs are well over $1,000 a month (worse, since we moved to this house), and I can't afford it. I should be grateful to my bf for staying with me.

Sadly, more people put me down than "sing my praises," chocolatelover. When I say stuff to him, he sometimes says I can't take a joke. I know he thinks that a lot, even when he doesn't say it.

I don't see beauty. I see fat, getting older, ugly, not being attractive enough for my dreams (acting). I recently saw a dentist, and found out I need over $8,000 worth of dental work, and that's not the cosmetic stuff I want done. I'm not surprised, mind you, but it's still depressing. My boyfriend was shocked, but I told him, I don't expect him to pay for that. Just the immediate treatment needed. My parents didn't teach me to or make me take care of my teeth. I do now, but there's so much damage, and my diet is so high in sugar, that things get worse. I now have periodontal disease, which I didn't have before.

My mom was upset to hear, too. But I think she solely blames me, and not herself, for the lack of parenting she and my dad sometimes did.

But thanks for cheering me up on what my boyfriend said. He can be really hurtful sometimes. If I say anything, I can't take a joke.

Notthemama, I especially found your suggestion funny!