Much of my psychiatric symptoms are internalized, I don't have a ton of outward behavioral signs (part of the reason I suspect I may have hypomanias that went undiagnosed). For example my bipolar screen is pretty negative....but I screened using a hypomania scale and I had a lot of strong indicators.

So I don't feel like I personally am faking anything...the only one who has really SEEN outward signs has been my husband. But as for trying to "trigger" a hypomanic episode I do kind of get that. My episodes have been fairly shortlived but I've kind of reveled in them. for someone in particular who struggles with chronic daytime sleepiness the hypomanias feel like a godsend