I have been trying to go back to work for about a year. I have gotten a seasonal job over the past summer and was able to make it almost to the end. Since than I have had four jobs and have not been able to keep any of them. One I flipped out over something that was said and left. The next I had such high blood pressure because of stress I ended up with a stroke. I thank got another job working for a company I had worked for before. I knew the work but for some reason I could translate it into practical application. I left before I was fired. I than got another job making more money, went through orientation than had a major freak out and panic attack and called and told them I was unable to work because of my health. I need to work and am going to try to get a job again. I have been trying to get everyone to just calm down and enable us to work. Nothing has been working. I am going to try to work maybe this summer but in the mean time I am eating a lot of bread and water. And the stress of no money is just compounding my desire to withdraw. It feels like the wheels have come off and we are stuck. I am moving in order to lower my housing costs hoping that will give us some breathing room. I am just finding a hard time getting back into the structure that allows us to work.