My t keeps telling me that I am a high functioning borderline. I don't feel high functioning, I hurt.... I am sleeping too much and thoughts of cutting and drinking are swirling around in my mind. Am I high functioning because I know the dangers of my choices? It doesn't matter, I still fight the same battles. sometimes I lose and sometimes i win a small skirmish. I manage to sit in my office each day and act like I'm ok, but the truth is I sleep 2 to 3 hours in the evening , then I get up and go to bed. I set my alarm for 5 but don't get up until 6:15. I feel alone. I can say the right words to others, but inside my own mind, i hear nothing but the lies that i'm worthless, alone, and the battle is not worth fighting. I know that i am sinking again, but i don't know how to stop the spiral.