Hello. This may be caused by anxiety, but this relates to depression a lot. I always assume people don't like me and don't want to be near me or talk to me. It's an immediate negative thought, and probably one of my worst ones. But I don't get people and I always feel people are mad at me and I don't understand the difference between angry and frustrated and that confuses me. But I have this field trip coming up, and we have to deal with rooms, and none of my friends are coming, so I have to be with random people. But we have to choose rooms. So we had a decision, but the rooming schedule messed up. So a leader at our school (whom I'm not fond of) decided who would be with whom. I didn't like it, but said fine. I saw the social worker after that. Seeing the social worker is good, but it drains my emotional energy. I feel really depressed/irritable depression for an hour before I get sad depression and want to cry and be by myself. But we talked about this, and I still feel sad about this issue. After school, I told my music teacher what was going on, and we looked at the sheet and I got to choose what I wanted. Me. I don't like making choices that hurt others because I'm a kind, and really anxious, person, but I do want my choices. Teens apparently are very selfish, well according to the social worker, and don't think of others, which is something I don't do. I do think of others constantly because of social anxiety.

Anyways, lost topic. I told my music teacher I don't like making these decisions because no one really likes me or cares where I am because I have no friends going on the trip. She told me that's not true, and people like me and she asked why I say this. I didn't respond because I was in a sad depressive mind, and would have cried. I feel people don't like me all the time. How does one get rid of that feeling? How do I make myself feel people love me?

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg