My husband of 30 + years asked for a separation last spring. He's a functional alcoholic and was one when I married him.
I think I knew it was near the end a few years ago when his drinking increased to the point that he was doing things that married men shouldn't be. This caused a loss of trust for me.
I still loved him though. It was actually a huge surprise when he was the one that asked for the separation. I think I was scared, and still am, of being alone.
I just wanted to slip this in because your posts rang true for me. Knowing it was over, but almost being scared that it was over.
I believe you have to have trust to have a relationship and marriage. Once that trust is broken, it's hard to get back.
Thanks for listening to me...