Hey pinksoil - my problem is that I give the letters - I can't seem to hold onto them - my version of acting out. And that overflows into 'real life' occasionally. I intellectualize in person and emote in writing. I love to think and tend to think about thinking as pdoc says. I also can't quite have a conversation with T or pdoc in my head. I've done it with other people, but not them. I just can't imagine it. It's too hard to guess what they'll say.