I feel like a failure at everything right now. Obviously getting off medications isn't simple. I don't know exactly why I'm doing it except I know my health is worsening from it. What's the trade off though. Maybe extend my life but be completely miserable and irritable and angry? Does that make sense?
I just found something out about more problems in my family, it's something I don't know I can deal with.
I also was researching something here and ran into a post I wrote a long time ago. It sounded like I was a different person. I don't like me when I see what I wrote a long time ago. Almost enough to make me want to delete my account. I just wish I was good at something, mostly at being a mother. That's the most guilt I have, and I feel like I can't deal with the guilt of not being good enough anymore.