No, you're completely right. I mean, maturity really is how you handle stuff hurtling towards you. In that area, at least, I'm not perfect (I doubt anyone is)

I guess what I don't understand what leads me to be so ruthless with myself. I've even had some degree of it as a kid -- I kind of beat myself up as a kid because I was too shy to say hello to the new girl at my school. I guess we all beat ourselves up to some extent, but I can be pretty merciless with myself. I don't know why. Best I can do is try and decrease that behavior.