I would not describe my driving force as 'love'. More a genuine empathy and a deep caring for those on this difficult Journey with me. I believe I am too damaged and jaded to be any deeper emotionally attached - even in Real Life.

I was shown neither love nor attention in childhood, outward expression has always been difficult, especially with my Mental Health issues. Now I believe my ability to show Love has been irrepairably broken.

This is more fuel to Depression's fire.

Dave.