I just have to add to what everyone on this thread has posted previously. I hate working full time. It's not because I'm lazy; it's because between the commuting and awkward interactions with people and the job itself, having a full time job is completely exhausting and debilitating and there's nothing left for anything else. I have always dreaded the thought of having to have a full time job, even when I was in high school. It just seemed like a prison sentence - all those people there to judge you and criticize you and make your life difficult. There have been full time jobs that I have found satisfying and not exhausting, but they've been the exceptions, not the rule and the ones I've had in the last couple of years have been awful because I've been working for private law firms that are just completely toxic. I too have had way too many jobs in my 49 years and I also learned the hard way that the grass isn't necessarily greener. I'm starting a new job on 3/14 and I'm petrified. I haven't worked at all in two years. I'm so afraid of what it's going to be like and how people are going to treat me and whether or not it's going to be another toxic abusive hellhole. I really hope not. I'd love to just be a normal person with a normal career that isn't completely stressed out and depleted by it, but with my mental health issues - depression and GAD - that simply isn't going to happen. I am grateful to every single person who posted in this thread. I feel awful that you're going through the same thing I am, but I'm glad to know I'm not the only one that feels this way. Sometimes I feel like such a freak because everyone else just seems to be able to effortlessly get on with the business of making a living and aren't overly concerned with the hardships or issues with coworkers.