I wanted to post this and I stopped myself plenty of times because im afraid it will come off wrong and evil and I don't want any negative replies towards me. But I'm just being honest like I always am to you guys!

Now this may or may not be coming from my current state of hypo. But for those of you who don't know, I got booted from yet another job two wks ago because of my panic attacks and BP. And ever since then I've been obsessing over revenge towards my ex boss and the girl that fired me. And no, don't worry, im in no way a danger to anyone or wish to physically harm them!

Not going to lie I've done this in the past. And I've done stupid things because of it or mania. Well I worked next to a cardio doc as his assistant all day everyday. In my experience many docs are very demanding people and want what they want, when they want, how they want. And if you can't make it happen, then tough ****... Make it happen and now! This is how this dr was and every day was so stressful and just agony. Well on the job I witnessed him commit insurance fraud a lot. He would lie and put things in a patients chart to get a procedure covered so he could make more money. He would say that the person has this or that illness, lie on forms, ect. Also if a patients med was not covered, he would write the script in there wife's, friends, name if they had better insurance. We would keep meds in the office too and he would call the pharmacy and put them in one of the workers names. Often a controlled substance and this made the coworker uncomfortable and rightly so!

Another thing, when I got fired the girl that did it asked me why my behavior was so erratic and I flat out told her I'm BP and they can't fire me for a MI. I left anyway after telling half the office off (yea not proud of that).

Now the obsession: I day dream about reporting my boss for fraud and calling them pretending to be a law firm and say they are being sued for firing me over a mental illness. No I'm not proud of it and no I'm not going to act on it. But one can dream right? Anyone else get thoughts like these?

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