Before I was diagnosed as BP, I had severe obsessive thoughts of revenge. I actually wanted to physically harm people because I was so angry, and sometimes I would think of how I would harm them... which is probably worse than your thoughts. I'm glad I didn't act on them because that's not my normal behavior. (I'm normally a quiet, introverted person with no desires to hurt anybody. It scared me that I had such angry thoughts.) I must've been hypo or manic at the time... because I didn't always get those thoughts.
I don't blame you for feeling angry, though. Your ex boss sounds like a jack@ss.
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