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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
I wouldn't call this a crash. Actually a fairly smooth landing compared to others I've had. I wish I could take this day to rest in bed. I don't feel well. Exhausted after the hypo, plus the extra seroquel to keep full on mania away feels taxing on my body, gives me tummy probs too.
Already planned this day away from office to take care of some DMV appointments. I can do it. I have to. Going to get my drivers license replaced, take daughter to driver test she failed last time, look for my son down in town he has the drivers license test today too. I haven't heard from him in several days. He's 20 with drug probs. cannot let myself lose it and start crying today. I have to get these things done. And I will. Getting in shower now. Shower will help. I can do this. It's one day. I can cry all night tonight if I need to but not right now.
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That sucks that you have to do all that when you're feeling like this. I don't have grown kids but my step son (9 yrs old) recently started living with us full time and it's not easy when you have to keep it together and fake it for the sake of others. I even try to hide taking my meds around him. I don't want to look like I'm a pill popper in front of him. And with all my meds that's not easy. And he's smart! I admit there's a few times I've had to lock myself in the bathroom and cry it out. I just can't hold it in sometimes. After you get all this done, maybe before bed, just tuck yourself in and cry it out if that's what you need. Scream into your pillow if you have to! It's healthy to get it out. When I bottle it up, that bottle eventually explodes!
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