I had my second visit with my new T today, I find it easy to talk to him and he seems to already have a plan for me, not all at once, first step keeping me from feeling suicidal but also respecting my wish not to be hosptalized. He seems genuinely concerned about me and we've talked about medications but are taking it slowly.

He will see me twice a week until I'm not struggling so much and he does want me to have a psych evaluation and to think about meds but he's willing to let me try a few sessions of therapy without meds if that is my wish as long as the Pdoc agrees. I'm comfortable with that... it's not that I didn't want to see a Pdoc it's that I didn't want to jump right into meds I wanted to start with a T.

I've got the same case worker from my insurance that found this T for me working on finding me a pdoc.

And my next session with the T is on Monday.

And I talked with my good friend, the one who always makes me feel better.

So, feeling a little relief tonight, if only temporarily.