Hello, everyone. You have all been so great about answering my questions and sharing you own expereinces and insights.

I think I told everyone in my intor that I ahd been misdiagnosed as a young girl and that as a result I spent years taking strong antipsychotic medications as well spending a few years altogether in a state institution or other psych ward.

I have recently retired and moved back to the town where my parents lived. Memories and expereinces from this town are pretty awful, but I am really doing well , especailly since my husband likes living here.

However, it was here in this town that I was seen by a local doctor who referred me to the psychiatrist out of town who misdiagnosed me. I was a zombie for a long time, unable to fully function or even defend myself. It was really screwed up and even though that was many many eyars ago I think that a lot of people still remember and think of me as being that screwed up out to luhcn girl.

My concern is that since DID is controversial and a lot of medical people neither understand it or accept it as being a legitimate mental illness I worry that somehow my old medical history will be pulled out and docs here will think I am schizophrenic. Drugs prescribed and given to me by many a psychiatrist over the years practically killed me and frankly made it impossible for me to work through feelings or problems. I lsot a lot of time, years, and memories and getting myself back together was not due to drugs but intensive therapy and work on self and life.

Having worked in a major hospital I am aware of how liberally even general physicians prescribe antispychotoc drugs for everything from geriatric delierium to childrens anxiety and inabilty to sleep. People act and talk as if these drugs are harmless and hve no potential dangers associated with them.

I am so afraid that if something happens so I have to go to a hospital and see a doctor or worse yet have a family practitioner assigned to me and I will be hurt again by their ignorance. So far only acute illness or accidents have sent me to the clinic but I know the staff wants me to get a regular assigned physician.

I have met too many docs who I couldnt talk to or trust. Now that I am older I fear getting some doc who thinks he knows everything about psyche , loves handing out psychotropics, looks at me and sees a senile old woman, and really doesnt have a clue about me adn where I come from and what I have been through.

How can I protect and defend myself against physicians and their love of medication? I am allergic to sulfa and can ahve that put on my medical history, but I cant put down that giving me antipsychotic drugs takes away my mind and I cant afford to expereince all that again.

Any ideas? Any thoughts? Anyone else out there afraid of psychaitry , psychiatrists and other medical personnel who just cant prescribe enough of these drugs for any and all reasons /to any and all people?
Does anyone else feel threated and insecure regarding health care and health care providers?