I think the hardest thing to accept when I'm really struggling this is my life. I have live my life without knowing understanding or knowing what is good or not for me. Not really happy even if do well. It's how I feel, when those close people passed away in my life, I am angry I want them here now and I am not ready and ready to be on my own emotionally, but I hate it.

I was short changed when do many were given much more and people say I have it good. Yes in some regard I do not fear of my parents being alcoholics and abusive physically.