I expect it was not what they had that you didn't - but the chase and the capture for him - especially if he was abusive -
I am really glad you are away from him and even though he is gone and sometimes even more so because someone is gone - you need to address these issues
maybe keep a notebook by your bed an when you wake write it down - the dream - then in the morning ask yourself what triggered this ? what am I trying to learn - alternatively just say its a dream - I need to release it and tell it it has no power over me anymore
sending mang good vibes your way
P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet