Hello- new here.

I have only been coming to terms with this for the last couple of years, and only one other person in my life knows. I have strange things happen, hard to explain, but sometimes the clutter in my head is so loud when they all start chatting that it is like being in a crowded restaurant. They only speak up when I feel safe. When there is any type of stress in my life at all, everything is as normal as pie. But when I am safe, there they are. Sometimes, I feel like they are all distant, and I like it that way. Once, one came too close, and a terrible memory popped up and I just... had a hard time assimilating it. I am curious, does anyone else have just "background noise" altars instead of "switching" altars? Also, I am curious, because I am the only one in my life with amazingly in-depth dreams. I dream with full length, sometimes full-life-time, full character development, and returnable scenes. I can come back to one or the other. Sometimes I wonder if these dreams are "their" worlds? I don't know. I don't have any answers. This is the first time I am asking for any one out there, and am pretty scared as it is... so I hope someone hears.