I'm becoming anxious for the day to be over. The rest of my day should go by fast, a blessing in the least, but I'm also anxious about going home. Or, at least, I think I am. This morning I kind of shut off my feelings, after the information about the new angry client. I feel numb. It's helping me push through the day, meet with clients, not break down at my desk, but I don't know what's going to happen at home. I could stay like this, or I could just break down later, and I don't know which I prefer. I know my bf will be there when I get home, like usual, but he said earlier this week that he was not staying tonight like he normally does. It made me feel selfish, because I always want him with me, but he has family at home he needs to spend time with as well. I don't feel anything against him for it, I just wish we were living together already.