Wow! There are so many emotions that u know the name of going on right now!

Everything that has been shared on this thread is a description of what I too am experiencing. There is much compassion in my heart for the hurts and loneliness that is here on this thread. Compassion also for the ones who shared their stories. I would like to say thank you for being brave with your self, it helped me to realize that I'm not alone either or as exiled as I have felt.

I too am married to a Jeckle/Hyde. That part of my life right now feels so panicky and desperate to try and fix it. There is the word compassion for him because I believe he cannot control it, but doesn't repair the damage done to my sense of safety.

My tears are behind my eyes and have been for a couple of years. They come sometimes at night when it's quite and everyone is asleep. There is no emotion with them. They just come. I am praying that is a sign of healing that I'm working toward.

I do have my two boys that I trust for hugs. They give them freely with nothing expected in return. Well, mostly. You know kids.

This has encouraged me so much reading this. I would like to encourage you with my belief that there is healing and wholeness to be had. It feels better again knowing I'm not alone.

Much love!!!

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