I did not deceide.
They got me so over medicated. Then husband and Pdoc got the ECT started. Overall I think I had about 12-14 ECT. Brain fry.
It's been since Sept 2015. I still can't remember tons of things others want to talk about. I don't remember why I did some stuff.

I can't remember who some of the people are who send me emls.
Dr said memory would come back. Bull pucky.

Lost whole blocks of time. Worst experience of my life.
Husband and best friend said I was comotose. I think new Pdoc in hospital had me so jacked up on Meds , that I was like that.
Anyway, one reason I'm here in Costa Rica is so Pdoc can't convince husband to put me thru ECT again.

One danger. I'm on Effexor. I read it takes 6 mo to carefully wean off. And I'm on benzos. So if she try's to munipulate me I'm screwed.

I'd like a new Pdoc. My appt with her lasts as long as it takes her to write scripts. I had talk therapy with my previous pdocs.