I have fibromyalgia, migraines, IBS, sciatica, 1 herniated disk, so far, a few bulging disk, chronic fatigue, scoliosis and situational depression. Some day there is nothing I can do about being down. Seems like pain puts you on some kind of horrible roller coaster. You start with pain, then your anxiety goes up a bit because of the pain...the increase in anxiety makes the pain worse and so on and so on. I've been there...at the point where I just wanted to end it. But because of my children, I couldn't do it. That's what stops me every time. You have to find something that matters more than you do...or I should say that's what it took for me. I also do Yoga and Meditation...I read a lot...I use heat and ice...I put myself in traction when needed...I have an adjustable bed...I have a massage cushion...I use a medium hard, medium size ball (it's actually a dog toy) to self massage in those knotted spots caused by fibro., I read a lot...and I have my dad and my children for support (My husband left me last year). Now I don't want to die, but sometimes I wish I did/could.
I hope you can find something or someone that keeps you alive...and I hope in the end it is you who keeps you alive. Love you.rself...it's hard..I'm still trying...it's really hard .