I have thought about therapist, for other aspects of my life.
There's just been a few factors in my way.
1.) Insurance. I don't have any and paying for it on my own is unimaginable.
2.) My parents. Even though I'm nineteen, the idea of me going to a therapist would be illogical to them.

I also that there a few contributing fators to why I do it.
1.) I was molested when I was four in preschool by a teacher.
2.) My parents were, so to say, very overbarring of me when I was younger. I was never allowed to experience a healthy relationship because of it.

I just know I want to stop.