I feel like absolute crap. It's 9:00pm and I just can't wait to go to bed already. I usually try and stay up as late as possible because the bf works third shift. I just know that when I do sleep I will probably sleep for 14+hrs. Been there. Done this. Last time I crashed like this I slept from 12pm-7:30am the next day. Yea it might be for my own good. A part of me is scared to sleep these days because I have horrible nightmares recently. I feel numb. Exhausted. Emotionally wrecked. I have a bad feeling that I'm going to crash too hard and slip into depression again. Maybe I'm going to wake up a completely diff person. Then I wake up and think about all the crap I did while hypo. I can't keep living like this basket case, locked up in my room either hypo and tapping away at my phone or sleeping it off. Worst of it is trying to explain why I've been sleeping to my bf or family. They've never accepted my MI from the get go. They think I'm just making excuses to **** up all the time. I've been chain smoking like crazy through my hypo. Bleh. Thanks for reading my little rant. Just had to get it out somewhere to someone because I sure as hell can't get it out to anyone here!

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