This thread really resonates with me. I worry a lot about how often i change my mind because i hate hypocrisy and i worry that changing my mind makes me a hypocrite. It's like i am two different people with my bipolar. One wants to save and overeat and oversleep and isolate and the other wants to spend and diet and exercise and be the life of the party.

I'm a serial dieter too. I usually go on a diet in the early Spring once Winter has broken. I'll take up the gym too. Last year i decorated my home with blow-ups of the fitness model Ava Cowan with the fantastic abs. Now i'm so inactive i get winded changing my bed.

The past two years i've had renovation hypo-manias which i abandoned once i crashed, luckily before the work had started. I had talked all about it to my neighbors and they had helped with floor plans and advice and i felt like such a loser having to tell them that i had changed my mind.

I try and comfort myself by telling myself that i am not a hypocrite, i just have bipolar and less co-operation between my parts than a healthy person. There's nothing ethically wrong with planning a reno and then cancelling it, after all. It's a waste of time and energy, tho.

My next Spring hypo-mania could start very soon with the arrival of some warm weather in the forecast and i have *promised* myself i won't get fascinated with renovation again. I will just get out and enjoy the city and festivals and be a tourist in my own city and see all the sights that i am too tired to get out to during the Summer, Fall and Winter when i'm depressed. It's an absurd life but i've been diagnosed for 25 years and i guess this is as good as it gets.

Nice thread. Good topic. Thanx!