i know my only option here is to try to meet someone else that i can get along with...
but when i close my eyes i see her :/
i know that its stupid... i just dont know how to get involved with someone new...
i just end up ignoring them or not noticing because my thoughts are somewhere off in wonderland...

i know i shouldn't put so much of my happiness in other people, but... i need someone close - not to babysit me or whatever... but someone i can reflect with... just dont see how its going to happen :/ for someone like me to have someone compatible seems like an impossibility...
im not getting any younger either - and its starting to scare me... what if i end up never meeting anyone or ever having the chance to develop any kind of relationship... because of my stupid feelings...

are there any other guys out there like that? even without Avpd symptoms-

im just complicated :/ an intellectual that cant seem to match up with people...
cant seem to get over this stupid brokenheart stuff...