> I wonder if the absence of the face is leading to assumptions about what he's feeling and thinking.

Maybe...

> Perhaps seeing him has advantages after all?

Dunno. I'm still not convinced... I don't think I was having a transference response. I think he was using a technique to get me talking.

I do worry that he feels a bit duped by the phone thing, though. I dunno... We do have these theoretical disputes sometimes... Last one was about whether it was theraputic for him to meet alters... This one is about whether it is theraputic for me to see him ftf... Dunno...

Maybe... I defend for a reason and that should just be respected. Maybe... I'll blurt when I'm ready to blurt. Not sure what good his pushing is doing. I push myself already... Don't I??