It sounds more like hypo-mania to me, but of course i am just a layperson. I think the threshold for genuine mania is that you have psychosis and i haven't read anything like that. Your post was very compelling, nonetheless, certainly a serious hypo-mania.

I'm really against alcohol because my mom was a drunk but several years ago i got into drinking during a hm because i just wanted to be wild, wild, wild! I went to this pub alone which is very uncharacteristic for me and drank so much i couldn't read the bill and just left $40 because i figured that would cover it as i was just drinking common beer. When i got in my apartment i was so blasted out of my mind that i fell flat on my face and gave myself a bloody nose.

It's amazing all the ***** i've done while hypo-manic and never got in trouble. I really value sobriety.

I do the reckless spending too. I've bought clothes and accessories that are more appropriate for a rock star, loud and garish when i usually wear sweats. I bought this fuscia boa once! I've never had my electricity cut off but i have to start saving for when i turn 65 in 15 years as my income will be cut by at least 60%. Luckily my mortgage runs out then too so my housing costs will go down 60% too.

I've eaten alone at expensive restaurants too. There's an exclusive steak house in my city and i just popped in there once on a whim when i am virtually a vegetarian.

I'm so indulgent when i'm hm! I just want to sink my teeth into the world and have wild experiences. I'm a homebody most of the year so i have no one to party with and end up going to festivals alone. I don't mind that much tho. When i go places alone i can go at my own pace and leave when i like.

The insomnia is a bore tho. I start sleeping only every second night for a few hours and then i start feeling pretty rundown.

What an absurd life!