Hello. You are in a tough spot and all I can do is tell you to hang in there and take it one step at a time. It is really hard being poor and trying to find a job and then being able to do what is necessary to keep it. It takes a lot of courage and will power and hopefull one day at a time and you will be strong enough to give it another shot. In the meantime, take care and keep sharing. You have already shown incredible strength in trying again and again. Keep doing that. I really think you are stronger than you realzie. hugs