I've had this problem for most of my life where I don't like it when people pay for things for me. At the same time, it's nice and it makes me happy but I can't help but feel guilty.

Also, since I'm going to have to go to a mental hospital soon, I'm so scared my boyfriend will have to pay a huge amount of money. I know if it's an emergency situation here in Sweden, it shouldn't cost anything, but the idea of him having to pay for my crap terrifies me. Thinking about it right now is making me freak out.

Also, he has to pay for my ticket back to America (which I can't go back they won't make me go back) it's like $1000 dollars it makes me freak out.