What do you do when your scared of living but your also scared of dying? because... this is the way I feel. I have nobody absolutely nobody really who I can talk to in person who really understands me. I really need someone my age also. I am really starting to give some serious thought to getting a dr. in the future. Whenever I go out, its always with family now,which is cool every now and then but it gets old not having anyone else. and i look around and all the people I see are with a bunch of friends their age or their boyfriends or girlfriends. where the heck did mine go? he left. and now its over. it wouldnt be fair to be with anyone else anyways, because all i would think of is my ex. I have no good friends as of right now. I have friends but none that I talk to about my problems. the ones that i can talk to that I am closest to have moved away and are in different states. I only have one close friend here, and he is a guy..sometimes i need another girl to talk to also, although he is really helpful and knows where I'm coming from. Really i dont even get to see him that much though and Im so busy. I feel so freakin alone. Its just like that song... "feels like forever sitting all alone inside your head". It really does. I feel like its only me..only my mind, sitting all alone up here in my head. and im scared to die, but im also scared to live. I feel like all I can be is here..in the middle of everything and there is nothing left to do except be here. i was thinking about this lastnight and im so sick of this. apparently this will never end. does anyone else feel like this?