I came up with the topic of my thesis while somewhat manic (based on another manic decision "let's go to Kosovo, since I am already in Balkans). Very ambitious, too ambitious to finish in standard term. But finished it and i am proud of myself.

I am productive when manicky. Yeah, sometimes it doesn't work out, but often it does. Even perfectly normal people with flatline moods sometimes make mistakes, fail at things, overestimate themselves.

So I am keeping these states. They worked for me so far. Or maybe it's just my drive and way I think. Maybe it's not disorder at all. It's just different from the flat and logical majority.