(((((wants2fly)))))) I, personally, do not think your bouts of terrible luck, bad choices, or whatever make you fundamentally flawed. There are so many things that go into not getting contracts renewed and homeowners assoc. are not even worth talking about - most of them are just corrupt. Sometimes friends quit calling not because they do not care but because they do not know what to do to help or what to say. It is hard to watch a friend struggle and sometimes people take the easy way out and just stay away. Try just thinking positive thoughts about your new job - it sounds like a really nice place to work which seems to be a start in the right direction. Take care of yourself and be gentle on yourself.