Hello Rachelakabatman: I'm sorry you are having this difficulty. I'm pretty-much solitary myself at this point. Fortunately I'm an older person which, I think, probably makes this easier. My perspective is that no good has ever resulted from me having anything to do with other people. I've had so many unfortunate experiences that, over time, I've had to accept that it is probably mostly me. Perhaps it is because I never liked myself & so it was simply not possible to get along with anyone else either. And, like you, I didn't, for the most part, realize I was doing it. (Sometimes I did...) But I guess I was. Anyway, my response, after so many years is to simply keep to myself. However, if I were still young, I doubt this would be an acceptable solution. So I hope that, if your old friends no longer want to be friends, you will strive to make new ones. I believe it is pretty-much accepted that loneliness is bad for one's health.