My self esteem is horrible too, I hate myself and don't know how anyone could like me. I always wonder how I ended up dating some really good looking guys, why the hell would they think I am attractive. Well, looking at old pictures when I had long hair, I like how I looked. But 5 years ago I cut my hair short and I think I look hideous now. Really trying to grow it out but then I get impulsive and cut it.