Lostinsidemyself - below is my story. I that is jsut hte rape portion, throw in some CSA and spousal abuse, and lots of just random disgustingness from relatives infliced on a child sexally, and that is my story in a nut shell.

I have not read your story, but we all do what we do for a reason. When it comes to having sex, man that is a whole nother ball game. I have to keep most of my clothes on, I am hypersensitive to touch. My back, shoulder, and stomach need to be covered up in order to avoid the sensation of touch. My chest is off limits. I wear socks when we have sex. For some reason socks give you a feeling of safety. (that is why they are often found in a rape kit) Sex is not that great of a past time to me. In fact a lot of the things my H says and does reminds me of my abuser.

Thank God so many of us here are blessed with good T's. I wish you the best in your recovery.

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