Thank you all so much for continuing to be so understanding. You have no idea what that means to me. I agree wholeheartedly with you guys and appreciate all your input even if I briefly jumped down your throat Divine, what I should have really said was that we were together long enough beforehand to know that it's not the marriage that's the issue. Since all of you seem to wonder so frequently I will say that we knew each other for 7 years and had a very clear relationship before we got married, but none of that really mattered because like I also said I knew him as soon as I laid eyes on him. I knew him like the back of my hand. I knew things I couldn't possibly have known which later turned out to be true. We both felt an extreme sense of familiarity with one another and knew we were what each one of us had been waiting for all along. I don't care how many romance novels you read - it DOES happen and I never thought it would happen to me until it did. The point is, my husband is having extreme problems with confidence right now, with major depression and feeling worthy and I am looking for ways to cope. It is a lot like that Roman. I dont know what else to say to explain it. Lately - since this problem arose - our relationship seems to shift between two extremes. I struggle with feelings of guilt sometimes because I can't cope with the situation better and because I see how much my pain hurts him and I just wish I could put an end to all of it. . . however unrealistic that sounds.

Molinit, I shared with everybody in my post that we're soul mates to paint a picture that one can never judge just how much we mean to each other. Whether or not we are soul mates is not up for debate and I am not here to prove or disprove your ideas and I don't wish to argue with anyone especially when it doesn't concern the issue at hand so I'd appreciate it if you didn't have any advice to give that you would please leave me in peace. I guess I gave you all you needed to hear anyway *shrug*