Hello everyone.

I just wanted to say thank you to you guys. I posted a couple of posts earlier this week, and one was really long. I know that when I post I can be a bit verbose (I like to write, always have), but this was even beyond what I usually post! Thank you so much to those of you who read it, and especially those of you who commented. I apologize for not being in the best of moods, and if I didn't receive your advice as graciously as I should have. I think that happens, and I know we all understand that happens here. But I haven't tended to take the time to thank people for their time and help, and I wanted to do so this time.

I am doing alright! I had a couple of days where I was spiraling, and now I'm back to being happy and stable. That is such a difference from where I was a few years ago. A lot of people asked, "Why do you need a relationship?" Well, I don't. And I chose not to pursue one for 7 years. But since I have gotten my life more on track in the last few years--four years ago, I was hospitalized for an OD and just this past October, I graduated from college with a professional degree. I spent a lot of my twenties spinning my wheels, being depressed and self-destructive. After my OD and hospitalization in 2012 I finally said that's it. Enough. Either I settle into being ill or I fight. I have decided that it's time to move forward. I think we all deserve love, I had just determined that, before, it was not a good time for me to pursue it. I (personally) felt that I didn't have much to offer someone. That's not to say that I didn't, that's just how I felt. I am a bit picky in what I'm looking for, and I felt that I couldn't ask someone to have certain qualities that I didn't have in myself. Anyway, the point is that I don't need a relationship. I never have. But we all deserve love, and my life is on an upward trajectory so...why can't I have one? It's okay for me to pursue one. Four years ago, what happened with J would have taken me out for weeks. This only had me spiraling for a day and a half and then I was like, "Psssht, stop. This is dumb." And I'm good. I feel like I won a major victory. I can do this! And you guys helped.

BTW, I'm not saying I'm perfect or totally healed...hell no! But I feel like I'm on the right track. Thank you.